1. Born / Never Signed Up For This
Arrival to a world of light and sound
No contract signed, consent not found
Blank canvas to paint each lonely day
Each breath accents hope and decay
2. Discovery / Growing
Eyes open wide the world so bright
Love and wonder dance in the light
Each discovery sparks new games to play
Softly repeats the most beautiful day
3. Early Trauma
A shadow loomed where safety dwell
Trust betrayed a private hell
Innocence shattered, a voice kept still
Bound by shadows of a fathers will
4. Split
Shattered mirror reflections collide
Fractured soul where I now reside
Many voices rise to shield and defend
Eternal f(L)ight no peace to lend
5. Black Hole / Memory Loss
Memories vanish into dark
Stolen moments a fading spark
In the void I lost my way
Fragile mind began to fray
6. Loss of Parents / Adults
Shadows of trust dissolve in time
With no parents I could not climb
Gone were the ones to guide my stay
Their absence turned blue skies to gray
7. Loss of a Friend
A shadow overtook my trembling hands
I hurt him we could not understand
His voice, a plea, broke through the fray
I froze, ashamed and ran away
8. Loss of Religion
A holy hand turned cruel and tight
In the shadows he claimed my light
"Speak of this and well end your breath"
Faith became fear my souls safety left
9. Going to Hell
The heavens turned, the silence grew
Faith unraveled, no path in view
Saw my fate in fire dwell
Marked me with the hand of hell
10. Escape Attempt
Pill bottle whispered a silent peace
Ropes promised pain would soon cease
Each failed attempt a deeper shell
A lonely day forever dwell
11. Addiction
Sweet smoke rose like whispers, a fleeting shield
Fungus dreams promised wounds would be healed
Escape attempts crumbled, their solace a lie
Another false hope, left wondering why
12. Loss of Privacy"
Sought a healer, to mend many scars
Confessions spilled beneath the stars
But in SOAP etched my anguish confide
My pain recorded leaked far and wide
13. Loss of Trust
I laid my truth bare, my soul confide
A past longed to heal, no more to hide
But doubt grew in loves gaze, now a fragile shell
The truth exposed, caused trust farewell
14. Loss of Assistance
I turned to doctors, my mind to share
Hoping theyd heal the weight I bear
"Insane" they deemed, with fear confine
Locked in their ward, no escape was mine
15. Loss of Self
Who am I? A ghost in my mind
A reflection of someone I cannot find
Lost in the mirror, gone astray
Today was truly the loneliest day